Thursday, September 22, 2011 , 7:51 PM

⇨Alone

I don't understand. I don't get it. Why can't you guys just stop pushing the responsibility around? Yes,it's probably really tough for both party. If given a chance, I wouldn't want to be in this position. I wouldn't want to be studying. But I won't wish to be born in a different family. Because I know once upon a time,my family;our family was a happy family and it seemed just like it was yesterday that our house was filled with laughters and guests and gifts and the whole house would smell of food.

But no. Being in a broken family was easier when I was younger and ignorant about everything happening around me. Now.....
Well I may still appear ignorant to all of you. But that is just what I choose to portray. You have no clue how tough this really is for me. Tough... Isnt that an understatement,really? I love my family. I love and hate my family with all of my heart. No matter how dismantled it is. One by one,everyone's leaving each other. All I have to do is smile each day and tell everyone "oh ya,it's fine. I'm fine. I can do without him/her. They don't mean anything to me." yeah,it can go on and on. But no. I
know all of that is just bullshit. Tell me,how easy was this supposed to be? Similar to a life of a first grader?
No matter how much crap I type on this space,nobody can truly understand how life is for me. I just wish they could stop pushing the blame to each other. Stop pushing their responsibilities away. Stop pushing me away..... Even if you must,don't do it in front of me. Never again,please? :(