Sulastri.
There isn't much to know about me
but if you must,you can try figuring.
Miscellaneous
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
, 6:12 AM
⇨2013
I really want this year to be a new beginning for me. I want it to be fresh like a new book I'm about to read. (Books,i love) I just wanna love living this life.
Got everything mapped out but I just need a solid motivation and direction.
I am not proud to say that I have been independent throughout most of my 18 years... (Well sorta) I'm still a kid and I need someone to direct me. I'm actually tired of reminding myself my purpose in life. I know it,but I just lack the motivation. I'm tired and almost,bored in fact of planning things for my future. Yes,I can plan it,but I need some sort of motivation. Not those from friends,because I know they want the best. I mean,the kind from typical families. I feel like I'm all alone. I feel like a burden most of the time and I don't want to be that. If only I could have all the money in the world, only God knows what I would do with it. // I know I'm just wasting my time away now. Truth is, I just feel very suffocated. Really stressed out about a lot of things. I sleep my days away cos that's when everyone is awake and I don't have to talk to anyone. I really like shutting myself out nowadays(though it may not seem like it but I like it) // I don't like to be treated like I'm 6. Yes,I know I'm a girl and yes,I know my limits. I don't even date. Or like anyone. Eye candies,yes. But that's as far as I go now. I just don't get it. Why me? This "why" can seriously be branched out into many many different questions. I just can't get any answers. I'm tired...... And suffocated. I just need to shut down for awhile.// I don't like pity or sympathy. It makes me feel weak. And I am already weak as it is. So you get it.
No one reads this space anymore anyway,but if you are reading this,whoever you may be,thank you for reading. Because at least you know I'm not as strong or as happy as I wish I could be.
Got everything mapped out but I just need a solid motivation and direction.
I am not proud to say that I have been independent throughout most of my 18 years... (Well sorta) I'm still a kid and I need someone to direct me. I'm actually tired of reminding myself my purpose in life. I know it,but I just lack the motivation. I'm tired and almost,bored in fact of planning things for my future. Yes,I can plan it,but I need some sort of motivation. Not those from friends,because I know they want the best. I mean,the kind from typical families. I feel like I'm all alone. I feel like a burden most of the time and I don't want to be that. If only I could have all the money in the world, only God knows what I would do with it. // I know I'm just wasting my time away now. Truth is, I just feel very suffocated. Really stressed out about a lot of things. I sleep my days away cos that's when everyone is awake and I don't have to talk to anyone. I really like shutting myself out nowadays(though it may not seem like it but I like it) // I don't like to be treated like I'm 6. Yes,I know I'm a girl and yes,I know my limits. I don't even date. Or like anyone. Eye candies,yes. But that's as far as I go now. I just don't get it. Why me? This "why" can seriously be branched out into many many different questions. I just can't get any answers. I'm tired...... And suffocated. I just need to shut down for awhile.// I don't like pity or sympathy. It makes me feel weak. And I am already weak as it is. So you get it.
No one reads this space anymore anyway,but if you are reading this,whoever you may be,thank you for reading. Because at least you know I'm not as strong or as happy as I wish I could be.